Dun really know how to describe my feelings now.. A tinge of fury perfected by huge waves of sadness and disappointment is all I can say.. To me, these few days of freedom should have utmost significance throughout my NS life and to meet up with old friends to catch up on lost times is a sure-to-do thing for every newly enlisted NS man to make their book out days worth looking forward to and a fruitful one. Yet to every other civilian in mainland here, it is just another working day for them or just another day of activity at least, with personal commitments prioritised as most important in their list. No, i'm not blaming anyone.. it's just my luck that all of you have such an activity at such a time of the day.. Looks like "she" is the only person I can look forward to meeting on book-out days.. Fine.. I shall be contented with just that..
Indeed, a fucked up feeling you may say but i'm beginning to like army life more now due to the presence of many newly-forged friendships.. at least you won't feel lonely in any part of any day..
Book-out days are just days for me to catch up on my sleep.. nothing else should matter..
Having fever and sorethroat now.. thanks for the plenty of rest time you all have left me with.. yea thanks alot