Beggars can't be choosers. I can't but i'm one.

A Christmas at the gallows in solitude. My crimes were committed inadvertently despite your relentless efforts to calm my nerves, nevertheless, I plead guilty. My last words are for you to show mercy on my soul.

Lifted this passage from some1's blog.. somehow it appeals to me. It kinda summarises love in reality and its detailed definition.

"How does one know if he/she is in a relationship with the right person?"
EVERY relationship has a cycle.
In the beginning, you fall in love with your partner.
You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies.
Falling in love wasn't hard.
In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything.
That's why it's called "falling" in love...
Because it's happening TO YOU.
People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet."
Think about the imagery of that expression.
It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.
Falling is love is easy.
It's a passive experience.
But after a period of being together in a relationship, the euphoria of love fades.
It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship.
Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.
The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your own, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.
At this point, you and/or your partner might start asking, "Am I with the right person?"
And as you and your partner reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when relationships breakdown.
People blame their partner for their unhappiness and look outside their relationship for fulfillment.
** NOTE: Extra-marital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes.
Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.
But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your relationship.
It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better.
But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.
Because (listen carefully to this):
THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON;IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.
SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience.
It'll NEVER just happen to you.
You can't "find" LASTING love.
You have to "make" it day in and day out.
That's why we have the expression "the labour of love."
Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM.
You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your relationship works.
Make no mistake about it.
Love is NOT a mystery.
There are specific things you can do (with or without your partner) to succeed with your relationship.
Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make itr stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect.
If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable...you can "make" love.
Love is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling....

Nydc NY cheesecake + yz

The not-so-happy couple

Spot the real couples.. (as quoted from yina)

Hey hey.. We celebrated Yingzhen's belated bdae on Sun. A picture speaks a thousand words. There're about 7000 words. Shan't elaborate further.. Enjoy the photos..

Met yina and lawrence for steamboat at roxy square on sat nite.. yz, delon and gary joined ltr.. den it was to delon's hse for the nite.. played lotsa pub games and drank the coke-chivas concoction.. heh.. and delon's mum was damn nice to prepare breakfast for us the nxt morning.. cya guys soon yea..

Another item to be sold.. Sony Cybershot DSC T5 (5.1 megapixels) with warranty.
For more information, visit my listing on ebay:
http://cgi.ebay.com.sg/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ih=017&sspagename=STRK%3AMESE%3AIT&viewitem=&item=270054568213&rd=1&rd=1

... only to realise that they weren't anywhere to be found..

Hah. The phone's sold. This woman from UK but currently in Austria for business bought the phone and wants it to be delivered to Nigeria in time for her son's birthday as his present. Sold it for S$200 and so the listing has been ended. Thx to all who were interested.

The feeling's like the crucial 'ready or not, here i come' segment of the hide and seek game. Anxious and excited, yet a trifle of fear - the fear of losing the game.

Hey all.. i'll be selling a brand new nokia 7260(black).. anw if u guys r interested or for any info on it, u can check out my ebay listing.. http://cgi.ebay.com.sg/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=270052072903&ssPageName=STRK:MESE:IT&ih=017 or jus drop me a msg.. thx

Oh the previous listing was removed due to some breach of contract. Oh well. Updated the link.

Went to jac's chalet at downtown east Pasir Ris last thurs.. wasnt the typical bbq chalet.. haha.. it was kinda laze around and sleep chalet.. there wasnt any bbq at all cos we thought it wld be qt troublesome.. so we took jovan's car to bark's cafe opp selarang camp for dinner.. followed by my treat at jalan kayu.. den it was jus a few card games and we slept till morning.. hah
btw there were 5 of us but we didnt manage to tk a photo wif lawrence heh..

An acquaintance of mine once told me to play the fool as ignorance is bliss. I will if i must.

Stale orange or fresh mango anyone?

You have no idea how much I long for THE day to come.. all these sufferings just made me realise how life can actually torture one so much so that I can almost see life after death as being more pleasant than life before death itself, albeit no one knows whether we actually do burn in Hell or walk through the majestic gates of Heaven embracing the sweet serenity of the white-washed environment, and experiencing the cascading river of happiness that permeates into your senses ever so willingly without any procrastination nor obstacles in its way; just like water poured into a funnel. The unending sense of elation is one that no one has gone through before..

Unlike the fire-burst of confetti of party poppers in life, which doesn't last.

I would like to think that it's the latter cos' i'm craving for happiness like a cat craving for attention.

Went gymming and had an hr of badminton ytd wif janice at delta sports complex.. Was qt fun but physically draining.. muscles all aching now eh.. heh.. den it was lunch at queenstown hawker for some great, highly recommended guo tie(gyoza) and beijing chao mian. The food was ambrosial.. even the "iron-hot" weather didnt douse our moods of satisfying our taste-buds.
More to come nxt wk.. Swimming and Gymming on tues yea? dun forget..

Alrite now.. it was lunch,bowling,pool and dinner wif these dudettes.. and of cos ps2 at my place.. rilly been a long time since i''d met them. haha and janice's hair is rilly short but relatively longer as compared to a few mths ago when she'd shaved bald. Great catching up wif u ppl man..

Jac's bdae celebration today.. heh tho her actual bdae is on 25th. Went to New York New York at citylink for dinner.. waited a fucking hr for seats and no reservations were allowed to be made. We den adjourned to esplanade to soak up some romantic atmosphere wif jus-b performing accapella in the background. Spent more time finding our way to the car park where jac parked her car cos the entrances were all locked. Had prata at bencoolen st after tt..
PS: hope u like the cash tt we gave u jac (it was yina's idea)

Usual gathering.. Went to sakae for dinner yet again cos of the 9 coloured plates for $9 promotion. Then we went to the coffee club at rendezvous hotel after going to Ben & Jerry's at cathay and realised tt there werent any seats for so many of us.. followed by Timbre at armenian st. Heineken sums it all. Heh.

Haha.. my belated bdae celebration with these dudes.. got a $70 heeren voucher from them and a slice of the "boo-boo" cake from nydc as shown above. My apologies for the un-chronological order.. this blogger pic thing's screwed up. And i'm lazy to make amendments to it. In general, we went to sakae at heeren for lunch where they surprised me wif the cake and voucher den went to meritus mandarin to tk photos(law's idea). Hah. Go figure.

ok.. i got the phone alr.. it's cool.. u guys shld get it too.. esp yina.. heh

Ok.. I didnt do all of u proud.. but at least i tried.. well.. i learnt from it anw.. it's an experience afterall.. a valuable 1 in fact.. i'll jus try harder the nxt time..

Hav been splurging excessively recently.. spent almost 700 bucks this mth.. tts excluding meals and other miscellaneous stuffs.. bought some clothes and footwears.. aye.. and i'm eyeing the new sony ericsson k800i cyber-shot phone.. think i'm gonna buy it nxt mth.. when my dad gives me money for my bdae.. yea..

I'm fucking bored.. not onli now.. but for qt some time alr.. not tt i havent been going out and all.. when i come home i jus feel jaded.. lost.. looks like my oldself is slowly creeping back into me.. those times when i'm hardly ever home cos i'm always out... i need to get a grip on myself..

Looking forward to my long break b4 uni starts..

Havent felt like this for a long time.. My heart is on the verge of falling out of my ribs as it palpitates almost twice a sec. I can imagine the beads of trepidation which trickle down my cheeks if it weren't for the aircon room i'm in.. damn the anxiety..

Still no butterflies in my stomach.. whoever created this phrase.. im not feeling it..

Anw thx for those who've dropped a msg or 2 into my phone's inbox to inject some luck and encouragement into me.. trust me.. i'll do all of u proud.. heh.. i'll try i mean..

Finally back home after almost 2 wks of boredom. Cld say that I waited long for this return, yet being back, there's this sour feeling in me that lingers. Perhaps Brunei wasnt such a bad place afterall.. Or perhaps.. I'm missing Brunei.. A little..

Will be leaving for Brunei on this coming fri(21st july) and will only be back on the 2nd of Aug..
Don't msg me cos i'll make u pay for the 60c per sms k... heh.. im sorta broke now.. jus bought a new digicam(not solely for the trip but cos i needed to buy 1 anw and my old one sucks). not a new model but still a digicam i preferred - mostly for it's aesthetical qualities and it being compact.

delon me/yina's dunno wad drink/TCC at citylink/yingzhen

4mths and 3 days left.

Prata & Bowling

The Gang w/o Lawrence

YingZhen's bowling pose

Post-bowling pose

The hand, car and the..

Jackass's pose