And soon yr 2005 will be history and we wun get to relive this yr again which is gd cos it hasnt been a very gd yr for me. Actually i cant wait for yr 2006 to come cos tt's when i'll get out of the fucking army which is a fucking land of boredom.

Guess what?

I'll be spending the 1st moments of the new yr wif my parents cos they're 2 of the most impt ppl in my life and tt beats having to spend new yr stayin at home watching tv which i had in mind earlier on.

Hah. Fuck 2005.

I m on a tight budget for my xmas presents simply cos i hav no money. Going for present hunting wif jan ltr.. so im gonna say sorry to the recipients of the presents. Yina and all r coming over ltr tonite and boy do i miss them so..

Hav been reminiscing much abt the past.. where my life was ever so energetic.. was hardly ever home and stayed out till 4 to 5am during the weekends.. Now my life is jus so stagnant.. now i'm hardly ever out.. jus the thought of stepping out the house cowers me.. cos everything tt had happened has crippled me greatly.. i can no longer stand up.. yet as hard as i might, i try.. there isnt a solid ground for me to stand firm.

I hate this kinda life. I fucking hate it.

Aw.. How I love my life.

ok.. the best xmas gift so far..

One of the dumb photos i took when i was on duty ytd

Optimism: Instead of crying over spilt milk, go milk another cow.
Yes.. it was printed on one of the calendar pages on the desk and i believe it was directed to me. As for me, i'm still crying over the spilt milk and milking another cow simultaneously. O well.

Be contented wif what God has bestowed upon u.. be it good or bad.. don't seek for the betterment of life thru trudging phoney alternative paths tt may appear all that perfect and too good to be true.
There's a hefty price to pay for it.
I drifted down the unchallenged route,
and,
regretted gravely.
My dreams... Hopes.. everything all shattered..
I feel so hopeless.. Unmotivated to live..