...when and where can I find my silver lining...

Ahh.. 2 more papers left till the end of the much feared A levels examinations.. However, I'm not in the least bit elated nor overjoyed about it.. Certainly, the process of studying was and is still revolting, yet the feeling of contentment guaranteed after the accomplishment of tasks and objectives required within the syllabus, is so very soothing and comforting.. I admit that the ideal freedom I ought to, and should own, is one which is limitless and insatiable. On the contrary, the freedom which had been allocated to me prior to the examinations, was seemingly minute and in fact, negligible. Instinctively, one would think that it should be reflected as immense torture, but this interim restricted freedom is inherent in the process of completing any phase of our lives and I had already submitted myself to it. Furthermore, what's ahead of me, the finite days of "impeccable freedom" between the concluding day of my JC life and the commencement of the next phase-- NS, is a verified type of freedom which would impinge on me. A month and probably a few more weeks, isn't what I deserve to have after much hardwork..

Oh well, what can I do.. Perhaps, the best solution is to tell myself that a month and a half is too long of an enjoyment period..

Delusion.. will it help?